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I’m really happy with my new job so far and I have no reason to believe that I won’t stay happy. I really think it can only improve once I become more comfortable and get to know my new coworkers more. We’re moving to a bigger office in October so that’s pretty cool, plus I think we’re getting a company dog. This “office” environment is like nothing I’ve ever experienced before and I LIKE the actual responsibilities of my job. In fact the only thing that so far can be frustrating or annoying is the customers that think we’re mindreaders or are incredibly self-righteous or ask 5 million questions in one message and hell you’ll find such things in any customer support job.

I feel that this time in my life could be a turning point. If my work life falls into place like I think it is, then that’s another step in the right direction. But is it? If I’ve done X, and now believe I have started on the path to achieving Y… why does me feeling good about Y make me doubt my decision on X?

I think I just need more faith in myself, in believing that I did the right thing, I did the best thing for me, stick with it and be strong. Just because something positive happens doesn’t mean I have to immediately think negatively about everything else and say “okay I got this good thing, that must mean something bad is going to happen, or that I got it because I royally screwed up on something else”.

My thinking on this is kinda funny because I always say I don’t believe in karma… because I need evidence, I need hard evidence, proof that this happened because of that… but it could very well just be that karma affects small things and just because they’re small doesn’t mean they don’t pile up and make a big difference overall.

As always, I think too much. It’s really hard to change your thought process.

// The title of this post is lyrics from The Tourist by Radiohead.